When Will The Music Stop?

Truck stop near Barstow It's incredibly liberating and makes a dude feel like a dude, a guy feel like a guy and a man feel manly. I'm not talking about a badass car, playing football, pumping iron or out drinking your friends. I am referring to a much cooler club and so simple. I feel like a manly dude when I knock off 2 or 3 bowls of cereal or better yet, keep eating until the milk runs dry. Herculean, I think not, but worthy of a lesser fabled character. I love making harmless observations and quirky shit juxtaposed to when I used to do cocaine at work and I knew there was 736 ceramic tiles in the toilet next to the wall. I must have counted them 50 times and it hurts my soul and stomach to think about it, even though it was over 20 years ago. As long as I keep those gut wrenching memories in a jar close by, ALS or any other terminal disease, won't win the sober tug o war and I only need to win it one day at a time. Sometimes it may be a hour or minute at a time but my AA

I could have named this week's blog "Anton Through The Looking Glass", but that sounded like I was trying to impress others and not simply expressing myself. I'm looking back as I continue my journey of fitting jigsaw pieces together and get to know myself better and what makes me, me. I have done many AA inventories and a few years of therapy. Those outlets can be equated to premiere concert level pianos but my self reflection today is the Steinway piano of exploration. I'm also more mature, wiser and more honest today, although some would say otherwise. I believe the most important reason I am better equipped now is that I learned not to give a shit about what others think of me, it's none of my business. And with that ever present mindset, it makes fear of living my life out loud and doing it my way dissipate, in turn the freedom from fear is the ultimate liberator. Moving on, today's musical choice is inspired by a documentary released in 2003 entitled

Gooood Morning America!!! Feeling great and ready to blog. First a heartfelt thank you to Nick Piper for guest writing week 12 blog. It touched my soul and I love you. I laughed hard all the time with you and learned lots from you. Lisa Poggi & Don Anderson, authors of week 14 blog; your friendship, love and "being there" for us is mind boggling. We would be floundering without you two. Thank you with all my heart. I have quite a bit to catch up on and process out loud for me and y'all. It's Monday, the 28th day of June in the year 2021. The playlist is two very different art forms, musically speaking but both are terrific. First up is the soundtrack to Alan Parker's brilliant 1991 film  "The Commitments". Also listening to American Utopia, David Byrnes incredible musical Broadway event  adapted for HBO by Spike Lee. I have seen it at least 6 times. Both are filled with soul and I highly recommend watching both. Advocacy - Going way back to June 15th